Day 6

To know they're having the time of their lives together, but I'm glad she's happy and having fun. I just wish it was with me.
What do I do? I thought I told myself I'll move on. I put away anything that reminded me of her, but I just can't get over the fact that I still fucking miss her. I miss having someone to fall asleep on the phone with, to randomly wake me up because of sleep talks. I miss getting early morning calls and just hearing your soft, sleepy voice say, "I love you." I miss waiting for you at school and wondering what dress you wore to school that day. I miss being called your princess. I miss the way you kindly and softly ask for something in fears that I'll say no. I miss taking you to buy soda pops on Main Street. I miss just simply having someone I can depend on to support me in everything I do.
To know that you're doing all of this with someone else only hurts more.
Every time I receive a text, a call, an email, a notificaiton, an IM, or even a message, I think it's you. I become hopeful that it's you wanting to start over but I'm only let down. It's just a stupid fantasy I play in my head that I need to grow out of.
I'm lost, what do I do?