Everything you say to me.. I take your word for it. I've been strange lately.. and I apologize. Really I do babe, but I guess there's just something in the back of my head that's been bothering me. I don't know what, and I'm trying to figure it out myself. I pray to God every night, hoping that I'd get an answer as to why I've been so miserable lately. I don't sleep at night unless I hear you. I don't eat right unless I know you're happy and well. I haven't cried for anything, much less anyone in a while. But when I think of you... my eyes just start to tear up and I can't help but cry.
What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm trembling and I feel as if my legs are going to give out on me at any time.
I'm so confused right now. I don't know what to think. I don't know what I want anymore. The Lord's helped me out with my laptop and such but if this is how I'm going to feel for a long time then I don't want it anymore. None of it is worth it and all I want is you. If I have to give up this laptop and give up everything I've earned and saved up for you, then I don't want any of it anymore... all I need is you because lately... all I've felt is that I'm loosing you the past week.
Talk to me, tell me how you feel, tell me what's going on. You ask me all the time if anything's bothering me and all I know is that Highlong's bothering me. You've been spending more time with him and stuff I feel like you're starting to shift to him a bit more. It doesn't matter though... as long as you're happy, then you can go wherever you like. I promised you that I would love you forever, I would stay with you forever, and that I'd wait for you if anything.
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