I think I'm starting to overreact again. It maybe be a good thing... it may not...
Something just doesn't feel right. You refuse to charge and use your phone. You make me feel like I'm useless. I can't entertain you, I can't make you laugh, it's like you've changed after the cruise... as if I've changed. As days go by, I want to see you.. more and more... but at the same time I'm afraid to ask because I'm afraid its not what you want. I want this.. I want that but I can never find it in myself to ever ask. When you ask for something I don't hesitate to do what you say. And I don't have a problem with that, I love you
-oh, you just blew into the mic.. thanks.. LOL-
anyway, I don't even know why I'm complaining. If I love you so much... there shouldn't be a problem. I shouldn't even need to blog about my problems.. how sad is that? lol
Babe all I need right now, is a sign. Something you can show me that your love for me is still strong. I used to come to you and look towards you for strength to keep me going but lately.. I've turned only to see nothing. I want you in my life. I want to be the one that sits next to you when you first learn how to drive and yell at you while you run a red light. I want to help you move into your apartment when you get out of highschool. I want to ditch a night out with my friends and stay home with you and watch movies all night long until we fall asleep into each other's arms. I want to come over and fix your faucet when it starts leaking for no apparent reason. I want to be the one you call over at 4 in the morning to comfort you because you had a really bad dream. I want to be on one knee, telling you the 4 words that ever girl wishes to hear. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
I'm still young and naive, and who knows what'll happen in 10 years from now. But this is what I want now.
I might feel this sudden... negative feeling about how you're kinda pulling yourself away from me but if something's wrong babe, we'll make this work. We've always have, and we always will.
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